to love again?

For the past 7 years, my emotion was a roller coaster..

When i was with russ, i thought i was the luckiest and happiest girl on earth.. all people could see was the happy side of me.. like most relationship, of course there were fights and arguments.. just that i never told anyone except my mum who had seen me crying countless of times..

I'm not saying that it was all bad.. russ did loved me alot and we did have our happy times.. i was already dedicated my life to him but sadly, things did not worked out for us.. my whole world crumbled down when he said he was leaving.. i was devastated.. he was my everything for the past 4 years in our relationship.. i put him as my priority, which i later realized that i shouldn't..

With what had left in me, i was trying to move on.. i thought i'd never love again.. then later i found that i was still capable to have feelings for someone.. C was there for me when i was at the lowest of my life.. he didn't judge me, he accepted my past and he helped me back up to my feet.. he made me realize that i should live for myself, not for anyone else.. slowly i fell in love with him..

My heart was already shattered but i managed somehow to find a piece of it which still had hope, to love.. i was with C for 2 years and it also had its ups and downs.. it was hard for me to love and trust someone after russ, but C was patient enough.. i suffered depression after russ ended things with me, i was suicidal.. i know i was giving C a hard time and yet he stoodby me, which made me loved him more and more..

But history repeated itself once again, C left me.. this time, my heart didn't shattered.. he just took it away with him.. now i'm left with emptiness in me.. sometimes when i'm all alone, tears will be rolling down my cheeks.. i don't feel anything except the sadness in me..

I've tried to move on.. to work my ass off, to go on a holiday and even go out on dates.. but nothing works.. on the surface i do look happy, i do laugh BUT deep inside i'm fill with sadness..

Friends been asking me if i'd love again, all i could say is.. i don't think so.. not that i'm being negative but through my experiences, those whom i had loved will leave me eventually.. so why would i open my heart and risk of getting hurt again.. furthermore i'm not capable to love again as my heart just isn't here anymore..

6 years old and still alive?

My blog is more than 6 years old now.. it all started on 22nd May 2006.. out of boredom and a place for me to channel my rants, i registered on blogspot.. i didn't do it for money nor to be 'famous'.. so as you can see, i'm not a famous blogger :P

Blogging to me is a way for me to pour out my happiness or sadness BUT instead i've been judged and called gold digger.. readers who has absolutely NO IDEA what kind of a person i am will judge me.. yes i do admit that it was my fault.. i was young and naive.. thinking that this is MY blog and i can share my thoughts, feelings, and even the things i bought.. but sadly, no one would want to read all those.. so for me to avoid all the dissing and harsh comments, i blog ONLY about things which will NOT create any controversial issue..

If you've been following my blog for the past 6 years or maybe less, you'd notice that i've completely stop blogging about my life, thoughts and feelings.. it is now only about the events i attended and some adverts.. and due to my hectic working schedule, i didn't even have time to blog as often as before..

And now, i've just changed my job and hopefully i will have time to attend more events, widen my social network, blog and to increase my blog stats :P *fingers crossed*

So stay tune people! this blog will be ALIVE once again... hopefully... hahahaha!

H-Artistry 2012?

Yes, it was the time AGAIN.. the PINNACLE of OUR 2012 trilogy!!

This time around i was put to in charge of the artists.. eg: attending to their needs, making sure their holding rooms are comfortable and etc..

The line up was :-

Alexandra Burke

Block B

Havana Brown

Starkiller

Overall, it was a good night for ALL of us.. even though it was raining and people had to brave through the bad weather and traffic, i am pretty sure EVERYONE had fun! :)

The venue was packed :-

I was DEAD tired after the show as i was running everywhere to get to the artists needs and to make sure they go to the stage..

It was a GREAT night.. for me.. as i got to talk to Alexandra Burke and chilled with her and her entourage in her room! :D

She's a VERY VERY sweet, nice and down to earth person.. and her fav food is Hazelnut chocolate! ;)

Also i took a pic with Dj Havana Brown :D

ps: photos courtesy of Hennessy Malaysia

the complete man, code 10

It is really hard to find MY ideal man.. i thought i found him 6 years ago but it turns out.. oh well.. long story short.. i'm STILL single..

So how will your ideal man be? what COMPLETES a man?

CODE 10 has the answers for you "TEN CODES of CONDUCT"

You can now learn about the 10 CODES OF CONDUCT that makes a Complete Man and win GREAT prizes too! just follow the simple steps, answer simple questions and be REALLY creative

Code 10 Malaysia is giving away a Xbox 360 + Kinect 

HOW TO ENTER / MECHANICS

1. WATCH the above video.
2. LIKE Code 10 Malaysia Facebook Fan Page.
3. CLICK HERE: 10 MAKES THE MAN - WEEK 3
4. ANSWER the following question and slogan in the comment box:-
   - What subject was the Hero studying?
   - The smartest thing I’ve ever done is ______ (not more than 10 words).
5. SHARE and TAG at least five (5) friends in your answer. 

  

**IMPORTANT : closing date for this week's entries is 30th October 2012

For more information please click on the links below :-
Facebook Page - https://www.facebook.com/Code10Malaysia
Website - http://10makestheman.com/
Terms & Condition - Ten Makes The Man Watch2Win Contest

draw me?

Out of interest, a friend started to sketch friends on his FB.. even i've not met him before, he did a sketch on me! ❤

And i made it into my FB cover photo ❤ ❤ ❤

He did a few sketches recently :-

If you like what you just saw, click here to proceed to his FB page to contact him personally

ps: i've asked him to do a new sketch for me ;)

hennessy artistry @ KWC?

All hard work has been paid off to see the success of the event, Hennessy Artistry @ KWC

Here are some pictures to proof that we were hard at work!

Putting up signages

The view at KWC is MAGNIFICENT!

Tags were prepared

Walkies on standby

And i was excited!

During the event, apparently 3,000 people turned up

We all had a blast! the event was THE talk of the town..

Can't wait for the next one on 3rd Nov 2012?

Make sure to grab your tickets as soon as it's available! :D

See ya~

Unity KL?

Last Saturday (25/8/12) , i attended the opening of Unity store in Bangsar.. Leonard invited me via FB..

The lion dance group was all the way from Hong Kong

Unity mainly sells men's street wear

While Bazarro carries women clothing and accessories

 

 

 

The guys behind Subcrew (Sam Lee, Kobe, Frankie and Jahan) being interviewed

ps: stay tune for an update soon on my bkk trip! :D