it's time?

I think this is the time for me to change my lifestyle.

When i got married, i was so eager to become a housewife.. in the past 4 years, i was so wrapped up in my own little world.. i don't have to worry about anything and i thought having a wonderful loving husband is all i ever needed.. i've stop living for myself.. i don't know myself anymore.. i completely shut myself off from the world and society..

Now i think it's enough.. yes, i love my lifestyle.. sleeping late, waking up late, online and watch tv the whole day, shop once awhile, go traveling with my bb and etc.. something happened lately and it makes me wonder 'is that all to life?'.. i certainly do not want to waste my life doing nothing and just hanging around..

First of all, i want to start living my own life.. i don't want to be a couch potato anymore.. i'd get my arse up and start working out.. go for a swim or just playing basketball with my bb.. try to eat healthy and count the calories!

Since i really hate working, i'll try to come up with my own business.. i simply hate to wake up in the morning, get stuck in the jam, work like a dog, stuck in the jam again going back home and feeling tired..

Btw, i should be getting out there more often.. to connect back with the society.. i'm really glad that i've actually met a few nice people (eugene, cas, mimi) on the internet.. so i guess, not all are bad apples.. it gives me hope that there are actually people out there who are genuine :)

And lastly, i want to earn my own money so that i can shop all i want! and to be able to take care of myself if anything happens to my bb..

ps: to those who wish to have my old lifestyle, you can try it but the grass is always greener on the other side.. it's not as nice as what you think ;)