motivation?

What is your ambition in life? what drives/motivate you to achieve that ambition? for me it's simple.. the finer things in life..

I can say that i'm no longer the same person 4 years ago.. things changed, people change.. i don't get all teary eye when i watch a sappy love story movie or hear some lovey dovey romantic songs.. the things that happened in your life makes you change and grow up.. snapping you out from your fantasy/fairytale world and sucking you into the reality..

I grew up wanting things which i can't afford.. but i've always settled and be contented with the things that i can afford.. but now, i'm not.. i want things which i've always dream off.. i no longer want to settle anything lesser than what i want.. and i want to try my best to fulfill MY wishlist MYSELF.. as that will give me a big huge self satisfaction..

My wishlist consists of :-

- a studio apartment overlooking the KL view, either be at KLCC area OR right above pavilion as shopping makes me happy

- a wardrobe full with herve leger

 - a walk in closet of louboutins

 *photo courtesy of bella*

 - a jewelery box fill with my fav pieces of jewelery from van cleef, blvgari, cartier and etc

- a few of hermes birkin

- traveling of course

- and dine in the finest restaurants

I want to have it all and i want to achieve it by myself

*fingers crossed*

But for now, my aim is to drop a dress size.. from a size S in herve leger to an XS

herve leger?

"Herve Leger, sometimes written as Hervé Léger, is a fashion house founded by the designer currently known as Hervé L. Leroux


Leroux pioneered the creation of the "bandage" or "body-con (body-conscious)" dress, using materials traditionally associated with foundation garments to create dresses that would mold and shape the wearer's figure with its signature bandage-like strips


In September 1998, Herve Leger was acquired by the BCBG Max Azria Group from the Seagram's Group. This was the first-ever acquisition of a French couturier by an American designer" from wikipedia

Thanks to mimi, i got to know about this designer and the dresses are super awesome!

Check this out :-

Okay, okay.. i know.. i need to have a super sexy body to pull this dress off..

Well, hey.. i've lost almost 5kgs already.. so i think i deserve to get this dress so that i'd be more motivated to lose more weight and to tone up! ;) right? haha

short trip?

Well, i bet you're not surprise if i tell you that i just came back from singapore.. right?

I drove down on saturday afternoon and spent 3 nights in singapore.. russ was working from 7am to 7pm but yet we were able to spend some time together, at the hotel.. while he was at work, i got to meet up with some eugene, 2 of the fairlady owners from singapore and did some shopping at orchard..

The hotel we stayed in has a nice view from the rooftop.. plus i got to enjoy maxis coverage.. hence i had to go up to the 8th floor each time i want to bbm mimi or eugene and to do some photo uploads on fb..

Nice view, eh? ;)

The koi pond on the 6th floor

And the swimming pool

I went to orchard 2 days in a row.. spent like 3 or 4 hours just walking around.. from DFS at scotts road all the way to 313 at somerset.. didn't get to buy much.. the singapore sale is sitll going on and the louboutins are on SALE! 30% discount BUT yet after conversion, it's still expensive compare to what i can get if i order online.. so there, no louboutins for me..

But of course i managed to at least buy some stuff for myself :D

Molton Brown's warming eucalyptus bath and shower therapy - sgd49
Guerlain's meteorites perles (illuminating powder) - sgd81
Chanel's earring - sgd370
Chanel's chance EDT 50ml - sgd104

Then i helped cas to get her Kose's happy bath day precious rose body mist, shower gel and body soap from SaSa.. she couldn't get it in KL hence i did her a favor ;)

Yeap, that's all i bought.. believe it or not :p

I wonder when will be the next time i get to visit singapore again.. well, it's only 2 and a half hours drive any way *wink*

idiots?

These people are completely idiots or are they just plain ignorant? hmmm... maybe ignorant idiots.. i won't even blackout their car reg number.. they should be exposed

whiteBerry?

Ever since the BlackBerry becomes popular and people started raving about it, i've secretly wanted to get my hands on it.. but due to the stupid dummy phone at maxis, i can't access to the real phone to test it out..

Then as my friends got themselves a BB (mostly bold 9700), i'd asked them to tell/show me how does a BB works.. i fell in love after that.. i went home and googled the phone, it comes in black only :( hence many people (especially the girls) would zhng (to decorate) their BBs with colorful diamantes..

Since it comes in black only, so i'm not really keen to get it.. plus my trusty nokia E71 hasn't fail on me yet.. then a few months ago as i was browsing the web, i got to know that the BB will come in white! YAY!

So i waited and waited.. after a few months, i saw one of my friends on FB is selling the white BB.. my patience paid off! haha.. i messaged him instantly.. found out the price, got a nod from russ for approval to buy and then COD a few days after that..

Here's my new (2 weeks old) whiteBerry!

Yes, it's from T-mobile, singapore :D

The pouch is different from the black one, eh? :p

Although the camera is only 3.2MP but i can tell you that the picture quality is soooooooooooooo much better than the E71..

I've changed from prepaid to postpaid and took the BB plan from maxis.. i know that there's better plans out there but since i still want to keep my number, i got no other choice.. my plan is rm50 for calls, extra rm8 each month for sms-es (as i'm a sms person) and rm120 for the BB plan (data usage)..

It has only been 2 weeks since i bought the BB and now i can't live without it! it's addictive! uploading pictures has never been easier.. just snap and upload.. i used to snap with my camera, transfer to my laptop, edit and upload..

And i can keep in touch with russ so much easier :D way before i got my E71, i can only check my emails when i'm at home.. then with the E71, i can check my FB and emails.. but it was quite expensive as i was still using prepaid.. i had to constantly access to my email to check if russ had reply my emails or not.. BUT with the BB, i'd get a 'ping' every time i get a new email! so basically now, i can reply russ's email right after he sent it to me.. and if i'm lucky enough, he'd reply me instantly too! :)

Well, it has a good side and the bad for the 'push email' function.. the bad side is that it drains the BB's battery quite fast :( to tackle this problem.. i got myself a car charger! hehe..

SO, anyone out there has a BB too? we can BBM each other ;)


ps: i've never been an iphone fan so i won't be getting the new iphone 4.. russ asked me why don't i want the iphone.. well, i want to keep my nails long! :p plus i'm not a fan of touchscreen too :D

meatWorks?

I've been wanting to dine at meatWorks for the longest time.. i thought of waiting for russ to come back so that we both can dine there together.. but then since it's my friend's b'day today, we decided to try the food at meatWorks @ solaris, mont kiara..

First of all, when we entered the restaurant, there was no one there to greet us or to show us our table.. it was NOT packed so i wondered where the heck were the waiters!

Secondly, i had to take the menu myself from the table next to us as we weren't given one..

Third, the ventilation is bad.. we can smell what the chef was cooking! i mean, we came out from the restaurant smelling like steak! =.="

Forth, the food is NOT up to the standard.. we ordered a mushroom soup, garlic bread, sirloin, pan fried baramundi, orange juice and ice lemon tea.. the bill came up to a total of rm170.. well, we wouldn't mind the price IF the food and service is good but let me tell you..

- the mushroom soup tasted weird.. sour-ish actually
- the sirloin was cold
- baramundi had the fishy taste
- scallops were cold (came with the baramundi)
- salad had no dressing (came with the baramundi)
- orange juice was bland (no orange taste)

Fifth, my friend had to go to the cashier himself to ask for the bill as the waiter was nowhere to be found! and then he had to go back to the cashier to sign the bill as he paid by credit card..

I just don't see why people still flock to this place.. and before we left, i saw a caucasian guy leaving the restaurant shaking his head.. i guess he's not happy with the place too..

So, if you still want to take the chance and try out meatWorks, don't say that i didn't warn you.. you'd regret BIG time.. sigh~

working?

For the past 5 days (monday - friday), i've been working.. yeah, you heard me right.. i was working.. i had to wake up everyday at 6am, drive to monash, sunway and clock in by 7.45am..

My job was to assist the exam invigilators..
 - post up the seat allocation sheet outside the exam venue,
- outlay the exam paper and materials,
- accompany candidates who may leave the exam venue for toilet trips,
- have on hand a supply of extra script books for candidates
- collect submitted materials and arrange script books
- bag the answer scripts

Everyday my routine will start from 7.45am to 11.45am, lunch break til 12.30pm and continue to 4.55pm.. it's not my permanent job, just helping my friend out.. the job doesn't pay much but i've gained some experience from it ;)

~ happy 80th b'day nana!! ~

I was back in penang for a few days to attend nana's 80th birthday at rasa sayang.. family members flew in from near and far.. i drove there.. nana is russ's grandma from his dad side..

I had a good time there, all dressed up and meeting up with almost all of the relatives.. too bad russ wasn't there

home?

Today as i came out from the lift, something caught my eye.. something too familiar in fact.. the first thing which came to my mind was, am i dreaming? has someone finally came to their senses and return 'it' back to us? BUT i quickly snapped out of it.. i know that it will NEVER happen..

When i saw 'it','it' brought back memories.. i was overwhelmed.. in fact, i felt like crying.. there's no words for me to describe how i felt.. my heart was pounding and i kept telling myself 'don't cry'..

Wanna know what i saw?

This is it :-

Don't this photo brings back memories? i kept staring and looking at this car hoping that it's our car but i know, it isn't.. the side mirror, paint color, exhaust, bodykit, diffuser, seats are all different..

How i wish one day someone would really return our car back but i know it's just wishful thinking :'(

ps: there will be always sadness in me which just won't go away for as long as i live.. the 'beast' is not just a car.. it is not

why?

It has been almost 4 years i've disconnected from the society.. and lately, i've found out that things have changed.. it seems like everything now is so.. temporary.. jobs, friends, relationships, marriages..

Why can't people take things seriously anymore? is it coz of temptations? influences? immaturity? irresponsible?

Recently my friend just told me that his gf dumped him.. it was a 4 years relationship.. it was his fault for not showing her enough how much she means to him.. she asked him to marry her but he hesitated, thinking that he's not ready and she's not the one.. and when she finally had enough, told him she found someone new and she doesn't love him anymore, he finally realized how much he loves her.. but everything is just too late.. he took her love for granted.. this is one of the reasons why some relationships don't last long..

Another friend of mine got dumped by his gf of 3 years coz she feels that my friend didn't do his best for the relationship.. her expectations were higher than reality.. she expects him to do this and that.. she's more successful in her career compare to my friend.. my friend was struggling financially.. so i guess she had enough of going through hard times with him.. but it's not like my friend wasn't trying.. he was trying to make his own business work while working part time and also looking for better jobs.. he feels that he had done the best he could.. he thinks that he might think he did his best but maybe he could have do it even better..

Now he just got a job and it's paying quite well.. the only downside to it, is.. he's on a contract basis.. 3 months contract + 3 months contract + 3 months probation.. i was like omg.. means that he can get fired anytime in 9 months period.. companies are getting smart nowadays.. they doesn't want to confirm a staff so soon as if they fired them, they have to pay compensation.. hence now, most companies will have either 6 months or 9 months probation and some they don't even confirm a staff anymore..

It seems like nothing is taken seriously anymore.. even marriages as well.. what happen to the marriage vow?

"for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; until death do us part"

More and more people are divorcing nowadays.. divorces today is becoming alarming, more so when the reasons given are flimsy, which could have been settled amicably.. it seems like people could just state irreconcilable differences as reason for divorce and the judge will grant it..

Why can't people try their best to work things out? why would they give up so easily? why people would be so irresponsible to the marriage vows? is it a joke to them?

No one said earning a living is easy.. no one said marriages are easy as well.. it takes time, effort, patience to make things work.. people tend to take the easy way out now and taking things for granted.. if one thing doesn't work, give up and jump to another job/relationship..

It's just so scary outside now.. everything is so short term.. people are just getting less responsible towards their actions, promises, vows, jobs and etc..

brain washing?

Many of us got brain washed or influenced by other people without us realizing it.. some are good influences while most of it are bad ones..

Remember how you got influenced/pressured by your peers on your first puff of cigarette? or the 1st time you had sex? or the first time you smoked weed? or the first time you skipped school? or the first time you drank alcohol?

Often, it all started by 'friends'.. they will tell you how good it is to do this and that.. how they will boost your ego and bring you to cloud nine, telling and showing you ALL the good things about the things which they are doing.. that you will be way better off if you'd be like them.. tempting you..

They may not directly tell you to your face but the things they do or tell you, will indirectly makes you think of all the fun and excitement which you could have if you follow their footsteps

If you do not have a strong will power, you'd lose your own self.. you'd forget who you really are, the plans which you had made, ditching your family, loved ones and real friends just to get into the 'friends' world.. you'd do ALL the things which your 'friends' do just to get accepted into their world and you'd think that what they are doing is right..it feels right to you..

I was brain washed by friends too while i was in school.. i was being put in a position where, if i don't have a bf meant i don't belong to the popular group.. hence, i tried to get acceptance.. i argued with my mum, asking her why can't i have a bf.. why can't i go out with friends like everyone else.. why i can't even have guy friends.. constantly, i was giving my mum headaches and heartaches.. i was secretly wishing that i could ditch my mum so that i can do all the things which my friends are doing BUT i can't.. as she's my mum..

But i gotta thank her now.. for not giving up on me.. standing by me all the time and leading me back to the right path.. which is study comes first..

In college, most of my friends smoke.. even my mum, but not me.. why? coz i have a strong will power and i know what's good for me and what i should stay away from..

Conclusion, it's not a bad thing to have a big circle of friends.. it's not a bad thing too that you love to socialize.. just make sure DO NOT forget who you really are.. set your feet firm onto the ground.. make your own judgment, whether your friends are swaying you off from your right path or are they helping you to walk on the right path.. and 'open' your eyes when you make new friends.. some people are supposed to be hi and bye friends only while some will be there throughout your life, helping you through ups and downs.. and not taking you for granted